Sunday, December 17, 2006


This holiday season has been odd. Not bad or tough really, just odd. I haven’t been single in a long time and holidays can be stressful regardless of what your marital status may be…but this time around I find that I’m excited yet also filled with a bit of trepidation. Carrying the weight of Christmas for the kids is a bit rough at times. Yes, I know their Dad has a tree and presents and all that, but that does little to make this easier. I have this feeling of ‘it won’t be good enough’. Can I give them a fantastic Christmas with memories and traditions all alone? Will they grow up thinking back on all the things that ‘crazy mom’ made them do? Like ‘crazy mom’ made us sing Christmas carols in a circle around the tree until we were horse and then forced us to eat her cookies, which all resembled decapitated reindeer and snowmen. Blech…Wish me luck oh and the kids too.

I’d like to wish everyone a Happy Holiday! I hope all of your traditions and cookies (if applicable) are just perfect or at least edible.


Thursday, December 14, 2006

Soul Searching

I lay peacefully in a quiet haze of contentment.
Your warm hand possessively covering my breast your body folded around mine.
This is more intimate than I ever expected or thought I would allow.
I cherish this feeling for it is fleeting.
You will walk away.
When will you return?
This thought pushes me frontward.
I’m not one to flounder yet by writing this I prove myself a liar.
The lie means I feel and I am afraid.
I will struggle and I will hesitate but I will be here waiting for you to return, to fold you into my arms, take you into my bed, and into my heart.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Silly Meme

What kind of shirt are you wearing? V-Neck Sweater

Would you kiss anyone on your blogroll? Yes, and I have!

Do you have a "thing" for anyone on your blogroll? Oh, yes...

How many kids do you want to have? Um...I already have two.

Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Excellent...and I am thankful for them everyday.

What name would you want besides the one you have? Annalis, of course.

What did you do for your last birthday? Celebrated with family and friends...Oh and was treated to one of the most amazing dinners.

What's your current ringtone on your phone? Hmmmm....don't know the name of it. Some silly canned ringtone that annoys me greatly.

What do you think when you get meme's with missing questions? Are you kidding. I always change the questions...isn't that part of the fun?

What were you doing at midnight last night? Tossing and turning wishing I was already asleep.

Where is the furthest place you've ever called to talk to someone? East Coast

Do you like having your hair pulled? Absolutely...

Name something you CANNOT wait to do? Oh, this is a loaded question! I could start a meme on this alone...but I'll refrain from making this sexual because that's where this question takes my perverted mind.

Last time you saw your dad? Yesterday.

What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? I have made some profoundly stupid choices in my life and would love to back and do differently. Nuff said.

What is your favorite board game? Scrabble

Do you have a pimp name? Hmmm...nope. Maybe I need to get one....

What's the last thing you ate? Frosted Flakes

Favorite month? October

Least favorite month? October

What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? I can't think of a damned thing.

Who's getting on your nerves right now? No one, but the day is young.

Most visited Web page? MSN

Do you ever sleep in the nude? Yes, but if I'm sleeping alone I'll wear a t-shirt.

What is the strangest thing you have in your purse or wallet? Buzz Lightyear toy

Last person to make you sad? The ex and that really pisses me off.

Would you help your best friend fight if he/she is losing? Absolutely, but it wouldn't be pretty.

Coke or Pepsi? Diet Coke, please.

Do you have a crush? Oh, yes!

Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? I am kissed daily by my beautiful and very affectionate boys.

Thank you Chuck for the meme idea...