Unremarkable

Obsession lost but not forgotten
Little pieces of me left behind
Continuing trials of strength and character
Black thoughts and white noise

girl

This is about a girl with a secret.

A secret she knows may not be accepted by most. She feels strange and abnormal. She wonders why she has these needs and dark desires.

This is about a girl with a secret.

A secret she has never shared with anyone. Her secret makes her smile. It gives her power and control, which is a most fantastic paradox.

This is about a girl with a secret.

Burn, Baby, Burn

Blog friends, I am hot and I don’t mean in a good-looking kind of way. Hot as in freaking fry an egg on my head and call it a day. Sweet Christ, soooo hot. How does one function when it’s 90 degrees INSIDE your house for three straight days? You get in your car and drive around with your air conditioning full blast. Yeah, did you say driving on a ‘Spare the Air’ day is oh so politically incorrect? (Do all states have Spare the Air days or is it only in my smog filled state?) Not to mention gas costs a small fortune. Plus, my car is getting old. I don’t trust it not to just up and die on me, costing me thousands. Is it a problem to have the radio on, air cond blasting and the DVD player hooked up so the kids can watch Monsters, Inc. so they don’t bother me while I drive just to cool off? Dramatic? Who me? Just shoot me and put me out of my misery.

I was listening to The Raconteurs this weekend repeatedly. I have this habit that whenever I get a new CD I love I play it constantly until I can’t stand it anymore. That probably means that I have some sort of OCD thing going, but I’m too tired to analyze that tidbit at the moment.

What else, well my TV stopped working and my clothes dryer decided to quit on me. Good times.

Monday’s Wish List:

Cold bubbly beverages
Massage
Cool shower
Rinse
Repeat

Things I like…

Root beer float
Sex ~ Hmmm, funny how I listed this after root beer float.
Air conditioning ~ heat wave, enough said.
Smoothie ~ Homemade blueberry & banana is my favorite
A nice refreshing dip in the pool, if I had one that is…did I say it was hotter than the hinges.
Some more sex

Yes, I’m stuck on a theme here. Let me revise my list.

Sex
Smoothie
Pool
Sex
Root beer float
Sex
Pool
Nap

Ok, that works. Have a great day and stay cool.

My soul is thirsty

I’m heading out of town for a few days to beautiful Lake Tahoe. One of my favorite places to spend time.

It’s good for the soul.

discontent

Spread thin and exposed, exhaustion and frustration take over.
Easy to slip into self-doubt and indecision.
Weakness is exposed and open for all to judge.
Little things become mountains to conquer.
This is the price I pay for my mistakes.

Will I rise above the insurmountable?
Eventually, I am certain.
I will be changed and will learn to find pleasure through discontent.
Care to join me?

Happy Independence Day

I wish you all an enjoyable Fourth of July.
Eat, drink, and drink some more.
Don’t forget to take a moment to give thanks for our freedom.

Peace.